It was a pretty boring day at work today. I got in at my normal time, but our carpets got shampooed today, so that meant that I was only really able to work for about an hour and a half before we had to take everything off of the floors and take the chairs into the hallway.
It was kind of nice to have a break like that, but it made for an extremely boring day at work today. I thought I was just going to be able to sit outside in the sunshine and chillax, but it was so damn hot that I just had to come back to the hallway outside the office after about 20 minutes.
I am glad that I got text messaging on my phone though. I twittered throughout the day and more importantly was able to exchange a bunch of text messages with someone who always seems to make me smile. And of course, if I had known that this person wouldn’t have been bothered with me sending them messages every 15 minutes, I probably would have sent them messages every 10 minutes or something. LOL.
So, because I have become some sort of text fiend, I decided to get a new phone tonight – one with one of those slide out keyboards for ease of use and after I got to the store, the guy there convinced me to get this other phone which was pretty similar to the one I wanted to get. I was pretty happy that the phone was free, but after I got it home and was testing it out, I figured out that the one I got didn’t have camcorder capabilities! Doh! That sucks! I finally figured out how to post short videos from my phone to youtube and now I can’t. Well at least for the next day or so. I am going to take it back after work tomorrow. I am sooo glad that they have a liberal return policy, but am also pretty bummed that I think I should limit my use of the phone until I get it replaced, so I don’t think I should send as many texts tomorrow as I wanted to. Oh well.
It’s kind of like when I got my new desktop. It took me a couple of days to get that puppy set up just the way I wanted it to simply because I got a pretty good base model and a super super awesome video card and then when I got it home and was about to set everything up, I figured out that the power supply was inadequate for my video card. LOL. I was going to go in the morning and get a new power supply, but we were raiding in World of Warcraft, so I had to put that off until later that night.
But everything worked out in the end and my machine is super and I am happy.
Anyways, I digress. The custodian people told us that we might be out for about an hour and that because they weren’t doing a really deep shampoo, the carpets were going to be dry half an hour after they were done. Yea right. The carpets still weren’t dry 3 hours after they were done, so at that point, my boss finally came back from various meetings and just let us go home. The funny thing was that because the carpets were still wet, we got them dirty bringing all of the chairs back into the office. Doh again! Well, at least we were able to go home about an hour early today. Wheeee!
Wow, this post is boring! I am mostly writing this to apologize for my poor spelling and grammar on my previous post. I just re read it this evening and was constantly /facepalming at all of the words that I left out which actually made some sentences a little incomprehensible. So much for attention to detail. I could go back and correct it, so I seem smarter than I really am, but it’s done. I think people can get the gist of what I was saying.
One other thing I think is pretty funny is that I have been getting quite a few friend requests on Facebook lately from people I knew in elementary and middle school! I just find it quite amusing that these people remembered me after all of these years, even though we never really hung out past the 7th grade.
Well, it’s time to clean the kitty litter box and then off to bed!
June 4th, 2009
Oh man, I had such a weird and emotional day today.
I woke up feeling so damn lonely this morning and I just wasn’t really able to shake that feeling all day. I just kept thinking about my ex today and it was just incredibly annoying to me. I don’t think my loneliness was because I missed him, but more that whole missing that close, physical contact with somone you have bonded with kind of thing. I just wanted a really good hug and kiss from someone and I still do.
Plus, boss has been pissing me and co worker off lately. She’s trying to do more projects again, as if we didn’t have enough to do trying to keep up with all of the crap she gives us. It’s really easy for boss to say yes to things because she doesn’t actually do any of the work – we do.
So in order to distract myself, I had a glass of wine tonight and I got pretty tanked. It didn’t help that I didn’t eat dinner either, but oh well. It did relax me to a certain extent, but as always, I still pretty much remained in control of myself.
Gosh, I really do miss that feeling of recklessness from my younger days – those days of danger where I would willingly do really stupid things and wasn’t afraid of anything or any consequences. My life seems so boring in comparison right now. Yes, I know it is something that is in my own power to correct, but I am also older and do have more responsibilities, so it just seems more difficult to lose my inhibitions and go crazy like I used to.
June 3rd, 2009
I’ve been sitting here for the last hour trying to think of what to write. It’s been awhile since my last update. Doh! I’ve just been really preoccupied lately playing World of Warcraft, it’s crazy.
Well, it’s partly game play and partly because I am afraid to write – afraid I might lose control and admit something I really shouldn’t admit. It’s also nothing serious or scandalous, just something I need to work out on my own.
I have also finally started twittering again and am also finally becoming the technophile I knew I could be. In other words, I finally utilizing my cell phone to its almost fullest potential because I finally added text messaging to it and have figured out how to upload videos to YouTube, Flickr and other various services. I supposed it took me so long just because none of my friends here were ever technologically savvy as I seem to think I am.
Of course, now I am thinking about getting a new cell phone with a better camera and qwerty keyboard on it.
One positive thing about all of this technology is that it is making me feel young again. I mean, I still won’t tolerate any bullshit, but I am at least able to have fun to some extent. I still get quite the thrill when I get a message from someone – it’s just really nice to know that someone is out there thinking of you.
Work is still work. My coworker and I are still incredibly frustrated with our boss, but boss is unlikely to change any time soon. I am already falling behind in my work because there are just so many things that boss wants us to do and it never stops, so I don’t even know where to begin again. Coworker gave me advice to just do one paper at a time and I am trying, but as soon as I am done with one, there are 3 others to take its place. But, I know I will put up with it because I like having a job.
We also got some news today that because of budget shortfalls, we are going to have 3 unpaid days a month starting in July. That is going to be a little difficult since it amounts to just under a 14% pay cut. I mean, it’s not like I spend a lot of money now, but I still am trying to save like crazy, and that is just going to make it a little more difficult.
I also spoke with my friend A last week and we are now going to plan a trip to Europe next summer! Yay! She originally wanted me to take a New England tour with her, but I declined because I figured that if I was going to spend as much as the trip was going to cost, I would rather go to Europe! Yay! I know she is excited because she already put in her passport application. LOL. I still need to renew my passport. I think it expired like 10 years ago. Oh I hope this trip works out. I’ve been wanting to go to Europe for the past 4 or 5 years, but something would always come up and quash my dreams. This will also hopefully give me motivation to work out to get in shape again since I haven’t worked out in months! Months I say! And even though I have all kinds of weights and crazy videos and will not be making as much starting next month, I am going to buy a treadmill for my birthday! Finally! I’ve been freaking writing about it for at least 6 months, but could just not come to a decision, but I am going to do it now. I have the motivation! Yea!
Aiyeee, my birthday is coming up soon. I don’t even know if I am going to celebrate it this year. Blah. I don’t really want to go out. I just want to spend some time relaxing. I already put in to take a 4 day weekend and set up a couple of appointments that I have been putting off because I forgot about them. Whoops. Who knows, maybe I will go to an actual salon to get my biannual haircut and get a professional dye job to over all my gray!
But, as usual, I have stayed up too late and need to get to bed already. Here’s to pleasant dreams and hopes for a better tomorrow!
June 2nd, 2009
I am tired, so very tired, yet I still can’t seem to get to bed at a decent hour. I don’t know why. It’s not like I am playing my game until really late. I have actually been unplugging a little and watching some movies again. Which is a good thing since I am still paying for my Blockbuster subscription. LOL.
Work has been hectic, yet not hectic lately. I mean we really aren’t as busy as we were last year, but there are still a lot of things to do. I thought we were going to have enough staff to fully cover everything this year, but I was sadly mistaken. 99% of the office is part time. Which is kind of good in a way since it kind of limits all of the things that my boss can have us do. But, I know that it also really stresses out seasonal people out since we are in crunchtime and someone has to be there to cover these things and my immediate supervisor doesn’t want me to get that involved with that work for some reason. I don’t know. I will still try to help out wherever I can though.
One reason why aren’t as busy too is because there simply isn’t enough money to go around. Which also makes me wonder about the efficacy of some of these programs that people are fighting for funding for. I wonder if anyone has ever really done a study to see if funding these programs does give us more benefit for the dollar rather than sending the funding to some other program that is more consolidated. But then I suppose you run into the issue of favoritism and funding not being distributed “fairly” or something. It’s quite an interesting dance.
Man, that does make me seem so pessimistic though. I don’t know. My views on politics have definitely changed over the years, I don’t know if for the better. But I do try to take a more rounded point of view now, I think.
I really should be sleeping though. We have one major deadline today, which shouldn’t be an issue at all, but Friday. Oh Friday – that is going to be the mega long day where we most likely will be there until midnight. It should be interesting though. There was kind of a party atmosphere last year. I really didn’t have anything to do most of that night except to run to pick up reports when they were available and I am not sure if that is going to be much of an issue this year or if it is going to be worse simply because the funds aren’t there.
Then there is the swine flu. That has me worried too. Here is a swine flu tracker via Google maps. It’s kind of disturbing watching all of the little flags pop up everyday. I really should get to Costco and pick up some provisions just in case though. If anything, it would be like an early hurricane provision supply stock.
Anyways, I think I shall try to sleep now.
April 30th, 2009
What the? 4 posts in 1 month? Call Ripley!
It’s been an interesting week so far. I finally got my old laptop back from the office, so I can now websurf from bed and also apparently get used to this keyboard again. Yippy!
We had a weird electrical problem in our office on Monday where half of the outlets shorted out, so everyone except for 2 people did not have power for like 4 hours. We all thought it might have been a bad circuit breaker, but it just turned out to be a metal plate came loose from one of the desks and hit a plug, which caused the breaker to trip. It was kind of a nice respite since we really couldn’t do anything all day. It also meant that we got behind in a some stuff, but thankfully not that much.
We are getting into crunch time at work. It doesn’t seem as stressful as last year, but things haven’t really started in earnest yet. Things will certainly be interesting next week.
We are also supposed to be under a flash flood watch starting from tomorrow, so I wonder how much rain we will be getting. I’ve missed being in a good rain storm. I also have my wind up flashlight and radio at the ready in case anything gets too crazy.
I’ve just been feeling kind of down today. I just realized tonight that it’s been just about 3 years since I came back to Hawai and I am still trying to put myself back together after the breakup. I mean, I don’t feel as broken as I was 2 or 3 years ago, but I know that I am still broken and still feel like I am in a kind of limbo. I need to work more on my personal wellbeing, but I still haven’t been able to figure out how.
I want to be happy – with myself and with my life, but I just don’t know how. It’s frustrating. I can sit back and analyze my life and what is going on and think of an action plan, but I just can’t seem to be able to implement it. Maybe it’s a matter of faith. I am such a cynic that I just don’t know if I have faith anymore.
I don’t know. I just don’t know. At least I do have some happy moments, as pathetic as they may seem. I really love it when my cat cuddles up next to me when I go to bed and how she will still be there when I wake up. Yea. It’s the little things.
April 23rd, 2009
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