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October 14, 2008
I am so very sleepy right now. Shocking! I know! I just haven’t been sleeping very well these last few days. I think it’s stress. I just realized that the last 3 jobs I’ve had have been extremely stressful positions. I must be some kind of masochist or something. We did pull off another event today though. Whew. I am just incredibly backed up on my regular work now. Hurray! We have another event tomorrow and then one more next week and then hopefully November will be a bit more relaxed. I am hoping, but not positive. I might just try to switch positions then, I am not sure yet.
I am also really disappointed in myself. I had a whole list of things to do this past weekend and I think I accomplished 1 of them. I did make it to the gym on Saturday and used one of the Cardio Coach workouts I got from the wonderful Sean O’Malley. Heehee, he seems like a really cool/sweet guy actually. Heehee. Girl Crush!
I was just so exhausted this past weekend. It was nice to finally get a couple of days off, but I just kept thinking about all of the work I have to do and I just couldn’t relax. I should do some kundalini yoga again. That really seems to “center” me when I am out of whack.
Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed by it all – all of the work I have, all of the housework and home improvements I need to do and well, I just don’t know where to begin. I know I just need to start and just do something, but I overthink a lot of things and just can’t seem to get myself started.
I also just don’t have the money to do a lot of the things that need to be done around the house too. I really want to pull up all of the carpet and put in some nice flooring, but I have an idea in my head as to how much that is going to cost and it seems like an unreachable goal right now. I could do a lot of the work myself I suppose, but I’ve never laid flooring before. Plus, I think I would have trouble with moving a lot of the furniture around.
I also really need to replace my bathroom sink since it just isn’t very practical/functional, but I don’t know how much installation would cost on that and if I do that, I would need to paint the bathroom too. Ugh. It’s like a snowball effect. I need to do x, but that would mean that I would also have to do y in order for it to not seem so out there.
I just feel like I have no energy anymore. I know that is primarily because I am not exercising regularly, but it’s a viscous cycle, as trite as that is. If I exercise more, I would have the energy to do more stuff, but I am too tired to workout a lot of the times. Argh! I am still seriously considering getting a treadmill though. I think it would be easier if I could just get on a treadmill instead of spending so much time getting to the gym. I gotta keep an eye on craigslist.
Eh, I am just whining. I need to learn how not to procrastinate so much.
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