Now my living room looks like a disaster area and my cat is sad because she doesn’t have a place she can sprawl out in.

I know I just need to get off my ass and put shit away or throw things out, but I just can’t seem to get my ass in gear today.

Cleaning has also been frustrating for me.  I want to clean.  I need to clean, but not only do I have trouble getting my ass in gear, my trash bin is always full, so there is no room for me to throw stuff out.  The city had a brilliant idea to start curbside recycling.  Which is great, don’t get me wrong.  Except that they don’t accept the very things that take up a lot of room in the trash – like metal cans and regular paper.   They only take cardboard, some types of plastic and glass.  Which is fine, except that because the amount of things they accept is so limited, our garbage can is always full.

It is full because there are 3 families living in this house and there just isn’t enough space in the garbage for us all.  I really hope the city finally approves the second can we’ve been asking for very soon.

So yea, I want to clean, but it’s hard when I can’t really throw stuff out.   /sigh.

* I just edited this post.  If you saw it earlier, there were all of these weird symbols scattered throughout the post where there should have been spaces.   Weird.

I’ve been doing all kinds of web browsing now that I have more free time on my hands and I’ve been gravitating towards all kinds of online shopping places.  

I was very broke for a very long time and that got me into the habit of only getting necessities when I really needed them.  I rarely splurged on myself.

This year’s been different though.  Maybe I’m trying to fill a void in my life or maybe my subconcious thinks that getting some of these items really will improve my life. 

I don’t know.  I can’t really pinpoint it.

But, I’m back on it and since I had taken that unscheduled break, I decided to just start the whole prep schedule over again.  After this, I’m going to rewrite my schedule.  I am just hoping that I won’t get so tired when it comes to that time of month again so I can actually stay on schedule.

Today was a semi historic day in Hawaii.  The legislative session ended in late April and today was the Governor’s deadline to veto any bills that passed this past session.  One of the bills that passed at literally the last minute was HB444 – a bill that would have allowed people to enter into civil unions since gay marriage has basically been outlawed here.   However, the Governor vetoed that bill today and for some reason, the House of Representatives decided not to call a special session to override any vetoes the Governor might have sent down.

In a sense I am a little relieved that it didn’t pass simply because I do not believe that separate but equal = equal.  I think everyone should have the right to enter into marriages if they choose to regardless if the person they want to get married to is of the same sex as they are.   But that’s not the case here.  The government decided that the people should vote on if marriage should be between a man and a woman and the people overwhelmingly voted to keep marriage between a man and a woman.

One of the reasons the Governor gave as why she vetoed the bill was that she thought that it was too important of an issue for one person to decide and that it should be a ballot measure that all of the people can vote on.  As it was pointed out by someone on twitter, when has a minority rights issue ever been successfully been passed by the people?  If it were up to the voters, we would probably still have slavery and women would still be considered property and not have rights.  If it were up to the voters we would probably still have segregation.   Sometimes government has to take a stand and say these people are a minority, you may not agree with their views or their way of living, but they are people, they are citizens and all people should be afforded the same rights as others.

I was really hoping the Governor would have allowed the bill to become law, but it is an election year.  The Governor is not up for reelection, but her Lieutenant Governor is and he was opposed to the bill because the religious right equated it with same sex marriage.  If you put it into context of this being an election year, vetoing the bill was also a pretty smart move for the Governor.  The leading Democratic candidate is for same sex marriage and the leading Republican candidate is against it.  By vetoing this bill, it is sure to become a campaign issue and I think the upcoming gubernatorial election is going to get pretty darn ugly because of this.

It’s too bad though.  Hawaii has usually been seen as a pretty progressive state.  I believe that we were the first state to have legalized abortion and we’re also pretty progressive in the sense that all workers are pretty much guaranteed health insurance through their employers.

This is certainly going to be an interesting election.

I come in, I see the pile, and I do mean pile, of stuff I need to do and I just don’t know where to begin. It gets so overwhelming, it’s paralyzing sometimes.

I keep telling myself, okay, I’m going to do this, this and this by the end of the day and then something else pressing comes up or I find something older I need to take care of, and I just don’t get to it.

I try to organize myself, but my desk is too small for all the little piles of things, that my one big pile turns into just a complete mess.

Some days I just don’t want to go in and just want to stay home and work on home stuff. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful that I have a job, but damn, I really do need to get away one of these days.

I was so looking forward to going to Blizzcon in October, but I wasn’t able to get tickets. I got into the ticket line online within the first 30 seconds and all of the tickets sold out before I got my chance. Grrr. There is going to be another way to get them, without going the ebay route, but those tix are going to be $500! Fuck!

I do need to go on a vacation soon. I just don’t know where or what I can really afford right now.

Must think positive. Must think positive that I can pull all of this off.

These are my thoughts right now, but I also know that things really aren’t as bad as I’m letting them on to be. A lot of it is PMS, which I hate because it affects me so drastically.

I took a nap tonight, but it’s still late and I should go to bed.

This is an excerpt of the “Turbo Fire” informercial. Can you say “HOLY CRAP?!!!!!”